i can’t lie
blogs, i will miss you the most while i’m gone for two weeks.
please don’t let anything exciting happen over the next little while.
kthanxbai.
so nervous i’m going to cry
i’m super irrationally nervous
i know this is my first big international trip by myself.
but still, i think i’m going a little bit overboard.
whether i’m anxious about actually being able to do the hike.
or getting altitude sickness.
or about my plane getting in late and i miss my group.
or my luggage getting lost.
or…or…or.
this is absolutely ridiculous. and yet, this is the anxiety that i’m putting myself through.
it’s going to be an amazing experience. i think at this point, i’ll just be happy to get there and get this adventure started.
it’s amazing what our minds do to us, isn’t it?
decisions
i’m going to be offered a job in australia.
i applied on a lark.
and now it might be real.
like, a real thing.
i’m scared to change everything in my life.
but it could be an incredible adventure.
but i need to make this decision not out of guilt because people have spent time investigating this for me.
and not because people don’t want me to go.
and not because i’m worried about selling my condo.
or that i’m going to upset my mom.
i need to think this through.
may goals
i haven’t been good at setting goals lately, but i think i want to try and get back on the train. i’ve had a lot of confusion in my life - uncertainty about next steps, and how to proceed…so i think i need some focus, and the positive encouragement of accomplishing something within a 30 day period. let’s see how this goes.
1. have a kick-ass trip to peru
2. kick-ass at credentials presentation
3. cold call potential client (you know the one that you really want to work on)
4. make a decision about oz
5. call my mother more often
6. hit up body pump 2 to 3 times a week (obviously excluding time while in peru)
7. confirm half marathon training schedule & start it
8. sign up for half marathon in montreal on september 21
9. sign up for tennis lessons
10. be happy
so, that’s it for now. i think 10 for the month will be good. let’s see where i end up on june 1 :)
i think i did good.
so, i think i did something good at work today.
it wasn’t anything major, but there was a positive, encouraging outcome that came from something i thought was a long shot.
so, i did good. and i feel proud. and i feel like it’s been a while since i did something good and really contributed to work.
so, there’s that.
let’s hope this keeps on keepin’ on.
yay!
abs abs abs
i’ve been trying to focus a lot on my core lately, in the hopes that it will help me with my back issues, and provide me the strength to carry my pack on my hike.
tonight, though…oh my lord. my abs are SCREAMING. i didn’t do too aggressive of an abs workout, but i’m assuming it’s some sort of culmination of my recent focus on my core.
eep eep eep!
not myself.
i have not felt like myself lately. a lot of big life decisions are in front of me, at a point when i really wasn’t prepared to be making them. they’re still in front of me, still creating anxiety, still so much uncertainty. i think i am losing myself within all of this.
but soon, i will be on an amazing adventure (which is causing its own sort of stress). i hope it’s bring clarity. or at least a deadline to make these decisions. and maybe even find myself again.
i’m also hoping to get running again. two failed attempts in the last six months. now, two friends will be running a half out of town at the end of september. my goal is to join them. and kick ass.
so let’s see. it starts tomorrow. let’s make this stick.
